Posted by: Harsha • Aug 15th, 2003
As long as you are looking for and relying on saviors, buddhas, bodhisattavas, gods, gurus, and supermen, you will find it hard to stay with your ordinary everyday consciousness. It appears so fragile, unstable, conflicted, wretched, and filled with self-serving needs. It is no wonder that people get on the spiritual path and seek salvation and wish to run away from where they are and who they are.
It is entirely understandable! Here we are, nice and loving and compassionate people much of the time and yet all with our particular brands of greed, desires, anger, rage, and dissatisfaction. The spiritual heroes, the saviors, gurus, buddhas, and the yogis with mystical powers, who are so compassionate that they would die a million deaths to save all sentient beings, well they sort of put us to shame.
So there is always that invitation, to leave the ordinary mind behind, and become someone really beautiful, special, wise, and serene. I tell you that it is a false invitation. All such invitations based on the glamor of mysticism and charismatic gurus are false and counterproductive. They are premised on the assumption that implies subtly that someone outside of yourself will take you to Heaven or Truth or help you attain Nirvana or Moksha or whatever.
Your own beauty far surpasses the spiritual heroes you may have read and heard about. After all, the great saints, buddhas, yogis, etc. exist only in your imagination. But it is your existence as yourself that gives them life in your imagination.
Listen carefully. The ordinary consciousness itself holds the key. Your ordinary consciousness! You take it for granted because it is in such abundance. Our ordinariness is so abundant that no matter how much we spend everyday, we have plenty left over! It is a treasure house!
What you take for granted, the immediacy of your ordinary consciousness, is God peeping at you as yourself through a veil. You can call it Maya, Karma, conditional mind, or give it any name that satisfies you. The Vedas declare,
“Aham Brahamasmi – I Am Brahman”. It means that I Myself Am the Infinite!
The difficulty is that we are not convinced. The statement appears outrageous! We run from this because deep down we feel that we are just ordinary, fragile, confused, and needy people.
Perhaps you have read Rumi’s poem, “I Was Ready To Tell”. Everyone can identify with it. See for yourself. Here are the first few lines
“I was ready to tell the story of my life but the ripple of tears and the agony of my heart wouldn’t let me
I began to stutter saying a word here and there and all along i felt as tender as a crystal ready to be shattered
in this stormy sea we call life all the big ships come apart board by board
how can I survive riding a lonely little boat with no oars and no arms”
So a spiritual aspirant may ask, “How can I be the infinite existence when I am so helpless, weak, and thrown about here and there by the winds of change?”
This is where meditation, contemplative prayer, inquiry, and other types of spiritual practices comes in. Their role is to quiet your mind and to make it more conscious and alert to its own nature. This spiritual practice must take place in your ordinary consciousness. The only thing that can truly convince you to the depth of your Heart, is the Recognition of your own Beauty that the ancients called Sat-Chit-Ananda, the Pure Existence that is Self Existence, Self Knowledge, Self-Bliss, as One Homogeneous Whole with no differences anywhere.
Other things may be helpful. Reading the sacred texts, listening to the words of the wise, and meditating on them is all good. But the Recognition of Yourself as the Heart is the only thing that can convince you. Everything else provides only temporary solace.
Do they not say that man was made in God’s image. The pure essence of Man has the quality of God. Well here we are! It is the Self shining as consciousness and reflecting off the mental tendencies appearing to assume the form of our personality.
If with the mind, you look at the mind, patiently, through sorrows and tears and joys and laughter, through the exaltation and humiliations, the lucky breaks and tragedies of your life, you will look through your mind, and you will find yourself as yourself as the very look itself. And there will remain only this looking, and it cannot be named, because it is only you. Name is given to you by others. But it is only you, in pristine nakedness and purity. You can call it Seeing without seeing, Being without being, Knowing without knowing. It is the Self Clarity that ancients called Sat-Chit-Ananda.
If you revere your ordinary consciousness and recognize it as precious and remain aware holding quietly to this feeling of “I Am” , that becomes your way and you can throw away your crutches of religion and spirituality and buddhas and gurus and so on. All mystical experiences will come and go and hidden in this ordinary consciousness, you will reveal yourself to yourself as the Self.
This is why they say that the ordinary mind is the Buddha mind. Your ordinary mind is the Buddha mind!
Love to all,
The image was taken by Sumida on Samui Island, Thailand, 2002.